i have been cabbing it around like a freaking madwoman. i come up with every excuse to take a cab- oh it's freezing, oh my feet hurt so much in these shoes i think my body would thank me for it, oh i am not feeling too well i should torture myself and catch a cold, oh if i take the subway i will get locked out of yoga class again, oh i will be five minutes late for work if i take public transportation so i might as well pay 6 bucks more to be five mins early... and just tonight it was oh since i didn't pay for the concert tickets i can afford to take the cab there. but no!!! i need to stop i have spent hundreds on cabs this year alone and think about how much cheese that could've bought me! i need to stop this excuse-making and just freaking start leaving for my destination sooner.

behaviour like this makes me think about what an adult i am at 24 when i can never get to my appointments early. i used to think that punctuality was an adult thing... like getting fat and ugly are. things that just happened as one got older. i also used to think food cravings and greediness/no self-restraint would go away with adulthood but boy have i been misled. i wonder where that notion came from in the first place.