on crack or something

i'm losing my voice. it's 12.45 am and i am so tired. but instead of plopping into my very comfortable bed with mattress pad, i am scouring ebay for chandeliers. i'm hoping that a successful bid will make me a happier person momentarily.
i like to "get it now" on ebay which totally defeats the purpose, but i hate the wait and usually with those, i get beat anyway. either that or i think i will and then bid way too high and actually win something i didn't really want. i haven't mastered the art of ebay yet evidently.
mothers know best and mine certainly does because she was a darling and booked me a flight out of singapore to london (she says it was cheap) so i can stop over for a couple of days and spend them with my bf (if he still is at that time--otherwise sarah and shouzi, it's all you.) on the way back to ny. my mum is supermom really. she always has it planned to a T.
huiling and i went for filipino food today. had some pork stewed in beef blood. the thought is pretty scary, but it tasted ok. of course i got the comment i look filipina which is cool because i like that indigenous identity and being in the export category (oh sorry that was a bad bad joke-pui!). huiling was told she could pass off as a rich filipina girl (chinese-filipina that is). i am going to get myself that guide to ethnic eats in ny and try out ukrainian breakfast one of these days. if i can't travel, i have to at least say i've tasted the cuisine.