one week more
i have one week left before i pack my bags and head off to london. then new york. sounds damn glamorous, but it really isn't when you have to remember that your mission for the next two months is to look for ways to make ends meet, to pay the rent and feed a rather bottomless tummy. travelling is such fun but now i know why i can't live the life of a wanderer (a question i sought to answer blogs ago). it is quite frustrating to constantly be in transition, not really belonging anywhere. just when you think you've gotten adjusted to life in one place, you're suddenly off again to make life in another. i think it's because of this constant rooting and uprooting that i've distanced myself in many ways--better to be disconnected from everything so it's easier to leave behind.
so i did something yesterday i haven't done since arachnaphobia in primary 4: i went and watched a movie by myself. i was just so damn pissed that my plans to catch a movie had been foiling up for weeks now (no company/no tickets/no time/wrong time) and i was like, wtf, i CANNOT BE A VICTIM OF CIRCUMSTANCE. so instead of my original intention to pop by video ezy and pick up a coupla dvds, i ended up driving all the way to plaza sing and bought a single ticket to about adam. and so what if it was in the first row and i felt like quite an idiot with a craned neck, laughing by myself. i thought: man, this is a rite of passage. it is called "when you grow up you will have to watch movies by yourself because no one else will watch them with you."
it was quite a liberating experience and i am pretty sure i'll do more of it now that i'm no longer a alone-at-the-movies virgin. my sisters are still quite perplexed as to why i did it and almost out of pity for their dear sister who had to go through the agony of going to the movies alone, they both want to watch a movie with me tomorrow. haha. wonderful.
tonight i'm watching the motorcycle diaries. so that'll be three movie nights in a row. i should overdose on them now because i doubt i'll have the money for these simple pleasures in a week.
so i did something yesterday i haven't done since arachnaphobia in primary 4: i went and watched a movie by myself. i was just so damn pissed that my plans to catch a movie had been foiling up for weeks now (no company/no tickets/no time/wrong time) and i was like, wtf, i CANNOT BE A VICTIM OF CIRCUMSTANCE. so instead of my original intention to pop by video ezy and pick up a coupla dvds, i ended up driving all the way to plaza sing and bought a single ticket to about adam. and so what if it was in the first row and i felt like quite an idiot with a craned neck, laughing by myself. i thought: man, this is a rite of passage. it is called "when you grow up you will have to watch movies by yourself because no one else will watch them with you."
it was quite a liberating experience and i am pretty sure i'll do more of it now that i'm no longer a alone-at-the-movies virgin. my sisters are still quite perplexed as to why i did it and almost out of pity for their dear sister who had to go through the agony of going to the movies alone, they both want to watch a movie with me tomorrow. haha. wonderful.
tonight i'm watching the motorcycle diaries. so that'll be three movie nights in a row. i should overdose on them now because i doubt i'll have the money for these simple pleasures in a week.
posted by jia en at 5:44 AM
2 Comments:
hey jiaen!,
when are you going down to New York?
xiaohua :)
ern - how silly you are! i think that the majority of the movies i've gone to see in my life, i've watched alone. it's the only way to do it. i have grown so accustomed to it that i actually regret when someone else wants to come along.
but i'm glad you enjoyed yourself. never feel pity for going alone - it just means you're stronger than the rest! ~Ellen
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