even durian doesn't taste so good anymore

mostly depressing weekend, everyone here down and out relationship-wise. tonight instead of UN, we had group therapy-i cooked my low fat version of char kway teow and we ordered general tso's in and spent 4 hours moping and indulging in self pity. was supposed to try and study the municipal market today but only managed to get through 2 pages. i guess the real torture will come tomorrow.

i was walked into while in the bathroom myself sarah and to make things worse it was a friend so how very awkward to step out after.

all i could think about today was how i don't want to move on, how much i want to keep trying and maybe one day things will be ok between us. i've known not much else and i want to keep it that way. i don't want time to make things better because then we're just running away right now.

is it all hopeless now? how do you know to give up when your heart has not let up?